Cyclical attachment and death

When I fear loss, I assuage my fear by becoming attached to something else. I say to myself, “Oh, I’ve lost this, but I’ll go and get something else to replace it.” By doing this, I never deal with my attachment. I just become attached to different things.

Eventually, I’ll lose it all anyway. There will be nothing else to which I can become attached. Death is the sieve through which the sediment of attachment cannot flow, as the water of my soul passes on to whatever life is beyond this material one.

Can I start letting go now? Can I face the void already? Can I die while I still live?

What am I really? Some spiritualists would say I am just my consciousness. Everything else belongs to the material world.

Some people who have died and come back to life say that they saw God in the brief moments that they were dead.

Maybe our consciousness does persist beyond the barrier of death. And all that we really lose are the illusory material parts that we mistakenly attributed to our identities.

Can I lose those illusory material parts now? Is it unnatural to die that material death before my time? Or is there a heavenly life of pure consciousness to be lived here on earth if we can die before we die?