More efficient energy usage when going with the flow
I have a certain amount of energy. At times when I think what is good or right for me is not working out, I can apply my energy to change things. In other words, I can turn upstream and fight against the natural flow.
When I do this, I am trusting my own wisdom more than the universal wisdom. I am saying that I know what is right and good for me and that what is happening is not right and good for me. Therefore, I deem it worth the energy to fight against the way things are in order to make things the way I want them to be.
But how do I know what is good for me? Where do I get this wisdom from?
Part of it comes from my desires. Some of them are not complicated: to eat, to rest, to have sex. Others are more abstract: to be loved, to be respected, to be remembered. Part of it comes from societal norms and pressures. Part of it comes from intuition and unexplainable emotion. Part of it comes from my eogic perception of who I’m supposed to be.
Sometimes, what I think is good for me is in alignment with what the universe is giving me. But in other situations, when the universe is giving me something other than what I want, why do I resist? Why do I apply all my energy to make so little progress in the opposite direction?
It's like a river. The water flows in one direction. I can fight upstream, making little progress, because the natural flow of the universe is working against me.
Or, I can turn and head downstream, taking the same amount of energy I would have used to fight against the current and applying it in the same direction as the natural flow, increasing my momentum downstream.
I will make it much farther this way, although I will have less control of where I'm going. But who am I to decide where I'm going?
I am part of all this. Let it decide for me. Let me apply my energies in a way that is natural.
For a few years now, I have believed there is no such thing as right or wrong, good or bad. There is only what is and what is not.
How can I continue to align myself with what is? Rather than struggling and resisting and exerting my energy to turn what is not into what I want it to be.