Your desires change
You want something. You start to take steps toward it. You feel good.
You feel the joy of beginning to satisfy your desire.
But then you start to feel something else.
A feeling that's not good.
Maybe it's boredom, frustration, disappointment, anxiety, depression, or any other negative emotion.
Why?
What happened?
You were just feeling good.
One reason you might be starting to feel a not-good feeling is that your desires have changed.
For example, you're alone in your apartment and you're feeling lonely and you want to socialize. So you go out to get drinks, to dance, or to some other social event. At first, you're having fun. But then, you stop having fun. And you wonder what changed.
Your desires changed. You were feeling lonely, so you wanted to socialize. Now you've socialized, so you want to be alone again.
Or, you set a goal and you start working toward it. You want whatever achieving the goal will gain for you. At first, you're motivated. But then, you slow down. You start procrastinating. And you wonder what changed.
Your desires changed. You wanted whatever achieving that goal would gain for you. Now you want something else.
Your desires changed, but maybe you didn't realize it.
You were in execution mode. You were focused on the how and forgot about the why for a moment.
Why did you go out? Why did you set the goal?
You wanted to satisfy your desire, but now your desires have changed.
Any more execution is driving down the wrong road. You missed your turn.
If you're lost, it's okay to pull over. Recline your seat. Take a nap.
When you wake up, ask yourself, "What do I want?"
The question is simple, but the answer is not always obvious.
Take as long as you need. Take the energy that you were investing in doing and let it flow toward being.
We focus our consciousness on so many other things—on our work, on others, on our surroundings, on distractions.
Hold space for your consciousness to explore your inner world as you ask yourself, "What do I want?"